just a thought. triggered.

there is a tinge of sadness in your eyes.
and for no reason i would understand it.
there's so much depth.
behind all the laughter, there's something...
something hidden. something discreet. unwanted memories, perhaps? or is it the thirst for something?...
why can't u be true to yourself and face your fear? face your doubts? face your lack of confidence?
wouldn't it be easier if you just let the doubts go and be free?
why would you consider so much?
why are you taking nano mini steps 1 at a time?
wouldn't it be better if you can just let down all the guards and just strive on, with confidence?
im sorry i don't get it.
i have no choice but to leave you behind.
and maybe, that is what you are hoping for.
your lacking of confidence made you dare not to even think of "what if...". and not even dare to be true to your feelings.
you are running away from facing yourself. and that, is the weakest personality above all.

short of breath...

as i look around me...
everywhere is US...
sometimes it is suffocating to know how different we are.
yet most of the time there are similarities.
is there more similarities than difference?
should we focus on just the similarities? or just on the difference?
is it good to be just like everyone else?
everyone else has it; everyone else is doing it; everyone else believes it......
what will happen if one day you find out that you are the only one who is awake?
will you try to escape from it? from the "reality"?
or will you attempt to wake up others too?
or would you rather just knock yourself unconscious and keep on sleepwalking in the "reality" everyone perceive as "TRUE"?