just a thought. triggered.

there is a tinge of sadness in your eyes.
and for no reason i would understand it.
there's so much depth.
behind all the laughter, there's something...
something hidden. something discreet. unwanted memories, perhaps? or is it the thirst for something?...
why can't u be true to yourself and face your fear? face your doubts? face your lack of confidence?
wouldn't it be easier if you just let the doubts go and be free?
why would you consider so much?
why are you taking nano mini steps 1 at a time?
wouldn't it be better if you can just let down all the guards and just strive on, with confidence?
im sorry i don't get it.
i have no choice but to leave you behind.
and maybe, that is what you are hoping for.
your lacking of confidence made you dare not to even think of "what if...". and not even dare to be true to your feelings.
you are running away from facing yourself. and that, is the weakest personality above all.

i have a lot to say

"just let the feelings show, as the time flows...
everything gradually shows."

life is not as long as we think it is.
one may feel bored stiff with daily routines but that is why we are here.
to make occasional out- of- ordinary routines,
to add spice into own life, and others as well.
i have got something to tell..
NO.
i have a lot to tell.
but there never come a time where i can truly, freely express it.
i am not good at expressing. verbally. in conversations.
sometimes i can not really express what i really want to say.
it is hard.
different things may come out from my lips.
contradictory ideas may slip out of my lips even when my heart yearning to express it otherwise.
thus i can just solely rely on my thoughts to express it in words.
in the chains of thoughts reflected in my words.
words may become a good friend of mine.
or maybe they already have.
you can not say words are emotion-less. because they are vehicle of meanings and therefore they transmit emotions.
in one sense, they have emotions. but it is you and I that gives them that.
the power of delivering emotions through the chain of words.

Getting off from being a doormat to a Better life

Feel taken for granted most of the time? Read on...

sometimes it is how you act on that leads to you not being taken seriously by others...
are you true to your feelings? how do you treat yourself? with respect? no? do you respect others' decision more than your own?

Read through these steps and see if they can help...
1. Write down your thoughts in a journal daily. That way you become aware of what you are saying to yourself.

2. Then journal the things for which you are truly grateful and what you like about yourself.

3. Look for the reasons you take other people's lives more seriously than your own. Why do you value them more than yourself?

4. Challenge your self beliefs around how much or little you value yourself.

5. Find ways to trusting yourself, your abilities and skills.

6. Look back at all your successes and keep a list visible for when you are feeling down or worthless.

7. Look at the consequences of keeping a low self esteem.

8. Stop comparing.

9. Be honest to yourself: decide exactly how you feel about yourself now and ask whether you want to change that.

10. Value yourself.

11. don't sweat the small stuff, which does not really matters. if you don't think it will matter to you for the next two days or a week later, then it is not a matter of much concern. just let it go and focus on things that are of much importance.

true to your feelings

are you true to your feelings?

whenever you feel troubled or stuck in a situation, ask yourself..
How do I feel right now? know your own feelings.
and to know what is/are the emotions that influence your current feeling?
What do I want from this? What can I expect and am expecting from this?
which is what you expect this situation or trouble or issue will lead you to.
How can I find solution from understanding what I want?
after making clear of the main problem or making sure of what you want, take action.
to solve problems, you first need to understand the problem.
don't get too stress up to get rid of the problem using the wrong way coz it might lead to more problems.
I find these questions trigger me to have in depth understanding and help me out of tight corners or any kind of situations.
hope it helps you too.