life's little fact

有句话道：山不转人转。。天无绝人之路。
遇到生命的死角，别怕。。无法继续前进，记得要懂得收放自如，懂得改变，别说“没路走了。。” “完了”。。。别让负面的字眼和想法占据你的脑袋、心灵。。
“留得青山在不怕没柴烧”。。只要健康的体魄依然，继续加油吧！一切还不是结束。人，是万变的。懂得随环境改变生存方式，才是我们的生存之道。

Regrets. Fool.

Dang!!

i made the wrong decision! i let myself down. > <

the worst decision i ever made in year 2008 or maybe worst in all these years!!

i turned down one opportunity to work what i wanted to do all these years, for one suck pc fair job just because i already signed up and promised to work for the pc company before this mobile DJ job offer came in.

机会只给准备好的人。。我准备好了吗？

after this "incident" where i turned down this GREAT opportunity, it's evident that i am such a fool. such such absurd thing to do to turn down something i wanted.

just because of one word "PROMISE".

*beat myself up*

*beat myself again*

at first when i called up for the pc fair part time job i knew, this is going nowhere. year by year working at PC fair ain't gaining me anything.

experience? been there, done that. not much to learn at pc fair. other than fake that smile for the picky customers. or unless you go there for the girls.. well, i am not interested in girls so... forget it.

why hadn't it occured to me to call everyone i know to ask for possible opportunity to get into media business?

such fool.

muka tak tebal lah... macam ni consequences saya.

muka saya have to be more tebal. else i won't have any future in this field.

regrets. ah... such regrets.

i told myself i want to make a change.

i tell everyone to make a change.

but did i?

no i didn't. i am still the old me.

man, feel like stripping off this old skin and become a new me.

dang, the old me is dragging me down.

*struggle*

i need a more confident me.

when you realised you are a CLONE

nothing seems more normal than the life you are having
you breathe, you feel and you live.
happy or not
this is your life.
you accept and you take it and make the most out of it.
what if...
when you thought everything is real and solid
there's nothing more disastrous than to hear that you are merely a carbon copy of one other human who look just like you.
or more disastrous to know that you are not as special as you think you are.
that's absurd.
how can you not be the unique one?
how can there be someone else just like you?
you believe that you are special, one of a kind...
but you are not that special at all.
you read through the same books, were taught with same ideas under the same education system, were inspired by the same role models, addicted to the same predictable popular culture...
we are the same.
how can you not?
you are merely a clone of what the people in power creates.
you are nothing.
nothing, really.
not until you realised the truth and fight against it.
but how many will realised it before it is too late?
even when you realised it, are you strong enough to make a change?


note: a mixture of inspiration by The Island; Fight Club; 1984; the Matrix