Sunday, November 1, 2009

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

i wouldn't mind being alone...

because it is when i am by myself that i can find solitude and calmness from all chaotic and numbness. plus, if i can't even enjoy my own company, who else will enjoy be in my company? :)

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing is the same.

Sunday, October 18, 2009


my ever so supportive mother! <3 div="">

Saturday, October 10, 2009

i watch the stars from my window sill, the whole world is moving and i am standing still.
i enjoy moments like this sometimes. to feel the world around me. standing still. doing nothing. this is the moment when my mind feels most at peace with the world. time stops, as if it does not exist.

Saturday, September 26, 2009

only when there is love

when there is love, everything appears to be wonderful.
when there is love between two entities,
the sparkle and the bond shall be strengthen by a seal of kiss...

photography by Spencer Finnley

Sunday, September 13, 2009

there you are again...

confusing images flashes passed
playing in its soundless way
every single colour are in their places accordingly
everything seemed real.
the emotions are, the senses are.

the appearance of you after so long proves it true that there are still some pieces of you in me.
which, is so not suppose to be still around.

is this a sign to hold me back? a sign that comes from deep within?

the thing i yearn the most, is the thing i can't have. it seems.

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

You'll see what appeals to you

Things changed.
a new found territory has make a big influence on my perception.
i wonder how far i would explore? how far i will go?
now that i am meddling with something that goes against what the norm think wise.

this is going to be a great adventure for me. 

Saturday, August 29, 2009

day 1 and day 2

Day 1 and Day 2 of orientation went extremely well.
i was so glad to be able to emcee again. decided to make emceeing/hosting as a little part of my life ever since i had a taste of how it is like to be in the center of attention, emceeing away, and it all started 3 years ago. it is true fun (informal emceeing).

taken a few pics after day 1. was pretty hyper regardless of my exhaustion. :P

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Quotes on LIFE

Intellectual growth should commence at birth and cease only at death
- Albert Einstein

Laugh as much as you breathe and love as long as you live.

- undefined source

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

-Maria Robinson

Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential, and fight for your dreams.

- Ashley Smith

Sunday, August 16, 2009

exploring Tumblr

Dudes and peeps and friends and everyone!

lately i am sooo, very into blogging at tumblr! and MY! am I in love with my blog layout at Tumblr! :D the blog layout colour changes each and everytime the page is refreshed. haha. awesome. suits to my liking. hehe

and no, this is not the plan i blogged abt in the previous post. this is merely the interest i started during my hectic exam. oh yes, i still blog during exam. even the night before exam, coz i find blogging very comforting. xD

so, yeah.. Tumblr.. you have to see it for yourself to know how cool it is. :)

here, link to my blog at Tumblr, Just Thoughts.

i only came into knowing Tumblr in JULY 2009!!! through an official website of an interactive copywriter name Zach Golden. i know right?! i am SOOO outdated! hahaha

i would still use Thoughts. Stories. Me. and You for sure. so don't forget to still come back here often for updates! :D both blogs will have different kinda updates. you'll have to observe then you'll know how they differ! :P hehehe

here's some snapshots of my Tumblr blog- Just Thoughts! :) love all the colours!

there's are more colours! xD but these snapshots already said more than enough. :)

love ya!

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

totally random

if life were easy, then it wouldn't be life.

so why don't we set every downside of life aside, tilt our head high and set foot and embark upon the unknowing yet exciting journey that lies ahead?

yes. smirk at the challenges and obstacles and say "HA! GOTCHA!"

Monday, August 10, 2009

Heroic warrior

nothing gets more exciting than this.
the end is here and it as it marks the start of another
the sense of anticipation grows ever stronger.

i am no heroic warrior.
but even the greatest warrior sense fear, the only element that set us apart is that they counter fear and beat it.

therefore in the face of fear i always tell myself
be brave, don't run.
problems would be unresolved if i run.

therefore i make myself face fear and doubts.
because i know what matters most at the end of the day is to get through it all and then and there i shall get my reward.

Sunday, August 9, 2009

Gloria Jean's TVC

Gloria Jean's Coffees TVC is out!

haha.. nah, not on TV. it's a student production. Credits to Joshua Chay, Beverly Chee, Cherish Leow (me) and Robin Chan for the success of the "campaign" and the series of Ads. hehe
good job people!

recognise which hand belongs to me? LOL

in the mean time, enjoy the video recorded/edited by Joshua Chay! :D


Friday, August 7, 2009

Norms, Conformity, non Conformity

"To think that one has gone too far -- that means one has already accepted society's norms. It is already a form of self-censorship."
-(Oliviero Toscani, designer of Benetton commercials)

my interpretation

once or twice in a day, you would hear a tiny little voice in your head telling you what you are doing does not feels right. i believe most of you would have encounter this.
so where does that voice comes from?
you can say that it is your conscience speaking. but don't you think most often than not, our thoughts are highly influenced by what we perceive as norms?
we act like what the society expects us to be.
we walk like how we are supposed to be.
we talk like how we are supposed to be.
and when we come across someone who doesn't, we judge. we gossip. we stab them right at the face saying "you do not belong to us"
but have you ever thought of WHY we react that way? or so to say, why the society in general REACTED that greatly?
it is because the general mob of them feel that they are challenged.
or rather, they are jealous.
JEALOUS? you say?
yes. jealous. these people gossip about the people who dare to go against the norms because the non conformists are doing EXACTLY what the conformists do not dare to do.
conformists might think of going against the norms. but they never make a change and act in that sense.
non conformist on the other hand, act, walk, talk, the way they want without worrying a bit about the norms.

however, non conformist is very hard to come by.
once in a while, you would see a tinge of rebellion from the conformist.
yet peer pressure would tie them back down.
if only the rebellious conformist can hold on a little longer...

when a non conformist becomes phenomenal, other conformists would start to move towards copying THE non conformist, so that they feel as if they are being rebellious towards the societal norms.
well, they are self-deceiving really.
even if you can imitate what THE non conformist do, you can never BE the non conformist.
and i'll tell you exactly wHY.
you never got deep and interested enough to grasp the essence of being a non conformist.

Go figure.

Friday, July 17, 2009

TVC shooting done! xD

OH yeah! it's finally done! the video editing and the final cut is yet to be done however we were very satisfied with the result we get within that two days.

the people:


=Joshua (left) and Robin (right)=

and ME the one holding the camera.

here's a link to some of the behind the scenes shoots! xD
Gloria TVC Behind the Scenes
it's all on Joshua now. hehe looking forward to the final cut! :P *excited*

Sunday, July 12, 2009

shooting tomorrow!

there will be a TVC shoot tomorrow and the following day from 12.30pm-5pm around KL~ yipee~ shall upload the photos after the shootings. xD
Gloria Gloria~ :P
coffee here we come.........

Sunday, June 28, 2009

A Tribute to Michael Jackson

used to listen to MJ's song when i was a kid. yet as i grew older, we can hardly see him on tv anymore.

last night, for the 1st time in my life, i watched MJ's past concert on TV. HE WAS AMAZING on stage! with the kind of stage effects in the 90s, imagine what kind of performance he can have in present days! his stage performance was SUPERB! looking at the fans screaming, crying and yelling for his name, i am pretty sure even for someone like me (who is not a crazy fan or count as a fan of MJ), would sure yell as hell if i were there.

his on-stage persona, his walk, his steps, the way he strut on stage, his dance moves, are all to-die-for. seriously.
some would say, "come on! a freak like him who had so much plastic surgery to get himself look like a white man?!" i would like to say.. HEY! the world would be a better place with less judgemental notes and more positive shed of light please! he's just a man that is greatly misunderstood by most people of the world. put yourself in his shoes, then i am sure you would understand better.

everywhere i go, in this past two days, people are saying "i am not a big fan but... it's just sad". yes, this news greatly affected almost everyone who grew up and grew old knowing him in his best days as a performer.

no matter what, wish MJ will move on with his journey and get to a better place where he can have his talent and soul prevails to the end of time.

Friday, June 26, 2009

RIP Michael Jackson

when I first heard of this devastating news in the morning, I was still in bed...quite lazy to get up just to be frank to say. The news did not really sink in though, probably because I was still 80% asleep.

it was after I watched some of the music videos he made, that i realised.. oh my god! MJ is dead! his songs were one of those i grew up listening to! how can this be happening? he hasn't even started his final world tour... we have lost a sensational artist!

MJ proved to us that Black or White, we are not that much difference after all. Races is something gifted, yet we as human always want to differentiate. The kind of stereotyping runs deep in our veins that even the minorities start believing they are minorities, believing that they are filthy and poor in comparison to those who are "better". it becomes a self-fulfilling prophecy, because reality is what it is as we constructed it to be.

MJ is born as a black, leaving the world as a white. isn't it well proven that no matter black or white, you are still you? he is still the legendary MJ?

apart from his outstanding works and performances, the numerous plastic surgery that he had undergone, further proves the length that he would go to get himself near to perfection. the whole life of MJ is just like a reflection of mirror for us. showing us what is talent, what is persistence, what is perfection; and at the same time showing us the kind of trouble we should avoid getting into at all cost.

today, i am sure tears spilled all over the globe in the midst of mourning for the lost of MJ. I cried too. I cannot say that I am an official fan of MJ. yet, knowing MJ since I was a kid, I felt as if i lost a distant friend.
a number of his songs are inspiring and i am sure they touch the heart of you and me.

we all know that life is short and we all want to do meaningful things before we die.
however sometimes, the reality of it would still come as a shock because there wouldn't be a tell tale signs to tell you who are you going to lose tomorrow.just like what i posted earlier today, self-doubt always comes in between for me. I figured, why should i be bothered by that little self-doubt? what if there's no tomorrow?

RIP MJ, may your talent and persistence prevails at the other end of realm.

i can go far

I am quite disappointed in myself.

because i know where my weaknesses are, yet i never do something about it. and my greatest weakness, would be my self-doubt and self-criticism.

i always try to give positive insight into things around me. but not enough to be positive about myself.

whenever i am ready to set foot embarking on the journey in fulfilling my goal, I would start sensing the doubts creeping in, clouding my judgement.

"are you good enough?" "don't be stupid" "you are making a fool of yourself" "you are not born to do this".

What can I say, self-doubt and self-criticism have been with me all along however I wanted to get rid of them.. they already become a part of me. Whenever I feel great at something i am doing, or feeling great with myself, there must be something there threatening to bring me down.

I understand that without me believing in myself, i cannot convince others to do the same. I know what my capabilities are, but how far i can go, how good i am, i am not sure. I guess this is where the doubts come in. and when doubts kicking in, things would go the other way round to my liking.

I understand that without trying, one will never know. I never did. I never try hard enough. Because in the end fear and doubt always take over. I beat myself, and i let myself down. For instance, I am very much interested in emceeing, and would love to make it as my freelance profession. I said it again and again, to my family, and to some of my friends. but apart from getting my namecard printed, i did nothing to promote myself. why? doubt is there coz I am good but not good enough. doubt is there because i CARE of how others would see me. "yeah right, as if you have that LOOK for an emcee". well, I do agree, most emcees are hot and emcee very well, they are born to do it. I, on the other hand, is not hot yet I believe i can emcee well.
and also if you say i am lousy, without exposing to experiences, how in the world will I improve? people grow i know, and i know i can too. it's just that i need to beat that self-doubt of mine that is caused by me who cared so much of how others see me.

i understand that people are people and I am me. but still i always care how others see me. which, makes me lose me in public. which caused me "building" up a "me" that is not "me" in the presence of others. that is why i always hear people saying that i am too serious-looking, proud, or whatever that sort. well, they will never know me until they get to know me. coz that was me in disguise, to make myself appear controlled and poised in public. and yes, I prefer to be in control of my environment. when i don't i tend to get tensed up which leads me becoming... stiff and boring, according to some people.

let me ask u a question here.. have you ever see me danced (swaying to music anywhere i am at), laughed loudly (real loud) and being talkative in your presence? if you did, then yes, i feel comfortable around you, and I believe you and I see you as a friend.

i am me, when i am with my friends, friends i trust and comfortable with.. and of coz, my family, and also when i am alone.

i am me, when i am in public and doing things i enjoy doing (in this case, presentations, emceeing). because i know i am good and i enjoy being on stage with all eyes on me; because i am there and i know i can impress the people i am presenting to.

but getting off stage, it is a different story.

"believe in yourself"

i can go far.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

Plus-sized matters?

Nowadays, plus-sized models start to walk the runway, and are getting strong and more acceptable in fashion industry. Perhaps they see that plus-sized has big market potential, and that the designers finally care enough to know that plus-sized people love to look beautiful too. I mean, look around you, what is the probability that you will come across a "hot" woman with a to die for body walk down the street on a normal day? Plus-sized people deserves to wear designer clothings, too.

When we think of plus-sized models, more often than not we have this stereotyped mindset that they are fat, way fat. With layers of fat and bums here and there. But what is the definition of fat, really? For me, "fat" is a term that refers to people who doesn't eat a balanced diet, hardly exercise, and are fat without curves. Some, they are genetically fat yet I've seen some very successful examples of genetically-driven fat people eventually gain a more healthy image.

So what kind of healthy image that I am talking about here? That's the kind of image plus-sized models portray. Plus-sized models are not totally fat, because that wouldn't be a healthy image to portray to the mass audience. Plus-sized models have bigger bones, fuller figure, without losing their curves. That is what many if not most the smaller size models all yearn for but cannot achieve, the curves that plus-sized models possessed.

We all know that the definition of beauty lies in the hands of the trendsetters, namely the people who have their say in the fasion industry. It's really a bold thing to do, to answer the calling to stand against the still so typecasted views people have on plus-sized models. I believe some people still hold the thinking that plus-sized models shouldn't be on the runway. How awefully wrong they are.

For me, what's important in fashion is that as long as the models can bring out the essence and the kind of flair the designer clothing has, then being a plus-sized model or not, shouldn't be a problem. At the end of the day, as long as the "face", the "look" and the curvy body works the runway, the kind of impact that plus-sized models bring about is just the same as the impact any small size model can bring.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

self reliance by ralph waldo emerson- Originality

Originality by Ralph Waldo Emerson

At some point everyone realizes that envy is ignorance; that imitation is suicide; that like it or not, we are who we are; that despite the infinite abundance in the universe, nothing good can come to us except by working that little plot of land that we are given to farm.

Each of us is a brand-new power in nature.
No one else knows what we can do.
We ourselves don't even know until we've tried.

It's not for nothing that a face, a personality, a fact will strike a note with you but make no impression at all on me. Your mind is sculpted that way for a purpose. Your eye was placed in the path of a particular ray of light so that it could testify about that ray.

But what do we do? We don't halfway express ourselves before we become ashamed of that divine idea each of us represents. There's no reason to distrust that idea. It grew out of goodness and harmony, given to us in good faith. But God won't have his work done by cowards.

We turn out happy and refreshed when we put our heart into our work and do our best. Anything else gives us no peace; it's a shortcut that short-circuits. And when we try the shortcut we lose our inspiration, our muse, our creativity, our hope.

Monday, June 15, 2009

self reliance by ralph waldo emerson- Speak for Yourself

Speak Your Own Mind by Ralph Waldo Emerson

As brilliant as they were, the true contribution of Moses, Plato, Jesus, and the like is that they sidestepped history and tradition and spoke their own mind, not a rehash of what the experts agreed on.

True brilliance is noticing the little gleam of light that flashes through your own mind from within, not the neon signs of experts and world leaders.
But we give up on our own thoughts without a fight, simply because they are ours! In every work of genius, don't we recognize our own rejected thoughts? They return to us with a certain alienated majesty. The most important lesson we can learn from great works of art is this: to stand behind our spontaneous impression with gentle firmness, even and especially when the fans are all cheering for the other side. And if we don't? Tomorrow some stranger will come along and say quite eloquently what we thought and felt all the time, and we'll have to shamefully take our own opinion from someone else.

Sunday, June 14, 2009

self reliance by ralph waldo emerson- Genius

written by Ralph Waldo Emerson.

The other day I read some unusual poems. The poet wasn't famous for his poetry; in fact, he is a well-known artist, a painter. But the verses were so original and unconventional that they struck me, as I'm struck by any art that refuses to conform to convention, regardless of the subject or medium. It feels like the ghost of an old schoolteacher shaking a disapproving finger at my soul, scolding me for not remembering a lesson I should have learned by now. The frame of mind this kind of art puts me into is worth more to me than its content or message.
To believe your own thoughts- to believe that what is true for you in your private heart is true for everyone- that, is genius.
Say your secret belief out loud and it becomes the truth of the universe. In time, the innermost idea will expand to the outermost edge of the cosmos, and our first thought will be echoed back to us in the dying notes of the end of eternity.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Fighting 2009

no one would ever guess i would watch a movie like "Fighting". and yes, it is about fighting, underground fighting. this movie was not even on the top of my "to-watch-list" because i knew what kind of movie it will turn out to be- simple story, predictable plot and ending. having an urge to watch just about any movie after class today, i found out that there is limited choices for the 2 pm screening slot. Not planning to wait for extra two hours for 17 Again, i made an impulse decision at the counter (it was exactly 2pm that time), and chose Fighting over Drag me to Hell and a Hindu movie.

for the past few weeks, i watched X-men Wolverine, Star Trek, Angels and Demons, Terminator Salvation, almost all summer blockbusters. xD thus my choice for movie of the week is down to a few not so well received movies.

It turned out that, I liked "Fighting" afterall. not because of the actors, but because it is so simple that i liked it. The movie totally reflects the majority of the people living a hand to mouth existence. "I NEED MONEY" was what the main character Channing Tatum always had in mind. "I NEED MONEY" is what they all yearn for, not to be really wealthy, but at least, a secure income that can feed their young, and in the case of Channing Tatum, to prove that he has IT (as an inborn street fighter).
It not only portrays the realistic life of New Yorkers (not the white collars or blue collars, but those who live a life similar to the pirated CD peddlers/ Toy peddlers/ Gadget peddlers we have in our country).

unsurprisingly, this movie were granted the smallest theatre (cinema 5), and there were barely 15 audience at the 2pm slot (in comparison with Hannah Montana, Monster vs Alien, Night in the Museum 2 which was FULL). it is understandable, because people look for something that can take them away from the realistic side of the world, even for just a few hours. movies like Fighting, that portrays almost REAL life situations, won't get a second look at this movie.

from a rating of ten, i would give this movie a 5/10. it's a good try.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009


after months and months of deliberation..
the obvious answer stood out.
at this stage of life...
preferably... no strings attached would be the best option of all.
i am not the type that understand what a relationship is.
i guess.

Friday, June 5, 2009

copywriting rocks!

Copywriting ROX!

indeed. life has been busy for me and my coursemates.
Copywriting. IMC. Advertising. all excitingly challenging subjects for me which gets my blood pumping! (LOL, exaggerated) but well, they are really what that i am looking for at the least. hehe
all three courses need us to think out of the world. okay, out of the box. (that's so cliche).
anyways, it was a lot of hard work, but also a lot of fun!
we get inspirations from the tiniest things around us and what comes out, is more than just an ordinary result. and that, is the best part about copywriting/ advertising.

our classes had been real challenging yet very satisfactory because we get to express our ideas freely! no limitations! (maybe there is limitations, but i don't think we know what it is yet, haha)

anyways, with a fictional Ad campaign coming up, and fictional IMC campaign coming up (all fictional, coz just applies within the boundaries of the university walls), my semester will be so much more fun! and jam-packed of course. xD
but i don't mind being busy. hehe
too much slacking will coz brain malfunction.
too preoccupied will also caused brain freeze i know, but no worries, coz i am the type of person, who knows how to balance up my schedule.
i'll relax when i feel like it, and increase my momentum in working as deem necessary. xD

so......... yeah. lastly, would like to say THANK YOU to those blog supporters out there (i wish i know who my supporters are, so i give credits to them here, one by one). Thanks for still being with me while i am showing tendency of neglecting my blog. NO, no, no. i am not going to. I love blogging. I'll try to make time to fit blogging into my schedule as often as possible so that you all out there know a thing or two about what's currently happening in my life. xD

and also, whatever happens remember "persist" and "believe". im signing out now.

cheers and love,

Saturday, May 30, 2009

on... blogging

Haven’t been active in blogging for a while now. In blogging terms, my blog was almost to the point of drying stage.But that doesn’t mean nothing had been going through my mind, or that ideas are drying out.

Ideas never dried out. Never. It’s just that whether the ideas generated in our mind are merely cliché, that has been said and said like a scratchy old song.

However, it is quite hard to do something original.

You can say your idea is fresh, and many will say so too. your fresh idea, isn’t it a combination of something out of everything you read, you listen, you encountered in life?

The greatest copywriters all have said not once but a few times in their interview, that they do not have a certain ritual when it comes to generating ideas. Ideas come best when they do not try to force them out of their brain. And most importantly, they READ. They read all kinds of books. They experienced. And that is where all their great ideas come from.

So what makes these great minds so GREAT? It’s their point of view. Many if not most of us, rather prefer to look at things from one plane, at most of the time.

This happens because this one plane/ perspective is the one that MOST people would look at. It has been walked on for far so many times that we have got used to it, comfortable with it, and for us, it is just the way things are. But not for those great thinkers.

You and I and the great thinkers of the century all shared the SAME resources. Can you say what you encounter in life is the one and only, no one has ever been through what you been through? Yes, you can put it that way. But no, in reality, it doesn’t work this way. The only difference between you and the other person, who encountered the same experience, is how you take the experience, and make it yours. One may interpret it differently from another. Some will be greatly affected, some might just been through it and feels as if they had merely suffered a scratch by the mosquitoes.

Thus, this is the line that draws between us and the great thinkers. Great thinkers are who they are because they look at life a little more differently. They are more open to experiences and they, are always ready to take risks. I couldn’t make it even clearer. You all must have heard of or read of this before but it is not easy to execute in life isn’t it? You can say that they are born smart. But I do not hold the opinion that born as a smart kid is going to achieve more than those who don’t. It’s mere pretext. You know, making excuses for oneself, is one of the greatest obstacle that is bound to take you down. Real down. The greatest of the achievers never got to the place they are today in an instant. They worked their way up, from one point to another. Nothing comes easily, and nothing comes FREE in this world. Ok, what you get from your parents may be unconditional, but apart from that, nothing is free. Period. Want something? You have to earn it. (not necessarily in a tangible form)

If you want to generate great ideas, you have to expose, expose, expose. Don’t forget, knowledge is food.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Chosen Quotes to share with

Leadership and learning are indispensable to each other.

- John F. Kennedy


i remember the first time i was given the opportunity to be a leader.
gosh, i didn't know where to start!
thankfully along the way, advices are given by those i respect so much, that i learned.
i was bummed out for countless times, but in the end, everything turned out okay.
i learned, i have grown.
nowadays, after all that, i just feel it's easier to lead, than to follow.

Thursday, May 14, 2009

Quote of the Day

a man with high ego are annoying and in the sense that, he never realise how weak he is.
the more he wants to show you how good he is, or to others, it reflects just how shallow he is inside, how insecure. pity, pity. his need for recognition by others to "feed" his ego, proves just that.

just as the quote from this 1 satire (movie) puts it..

"he dances to seduce;
he seduces in order to conquer;
he has to conquer because he is a man."

(men with EGO are that weak aren't they)

Sunday, May 10, 2009

happy mother's day

happy Mother's Day! :)


on this day, I would give my mom a really tight embrace and hug.
a WARM HUG is what we all need to feel loved.
though I never hesitate to hug my mom whenever I feel like showing my love for her, I know she would still love it if I show her my love on MAMA day.
because she knows so well that a hug from me is enough to show and tell her: I LOVE MAMA! :)
nothing material, nothing out of the ordinary, it all comes from a HUG.

i am grateful that i am still be able to blessed with my mom's motherly love.
grateful that the brain tumour's comeback for the third time hasn't really affected my mom emotionally, so is ours.
the last time we checked with the doctors, the tumour is under control.
please bless my mom for the many years to come.
i love you. mama. xD


Happy MAMA's Day! hehe

Sunday, May 3, 2009

law of attraction

however freakish it may sound, whatever we ask for do come true. it's how much you want it and how much belief you placed on it that determines when you will receive it.

we are surrounded by lots of energy field which exist at different levels of intensity, thus everything is co-related. the more we believe in a thing, the more energy being transmitted into it. and as it goes on and on, it becomes realistic. just as when you think positively, more positive things will fill up your life. likewise, the more you dread something to come crashing and ruin your life, the more likely it will happen. because as you dread for it to happen, you are focusing your energy on making it happen. therefore, it is vital for us to focus on what we WANT, rather than what we don't want in our lives.

after experiencing the power of the law of universal attraction, i now do believe in this theory. positive thinking brings more good than negative ones, and what i wished for, do come true. so i will definitely continue practicing and focusing on sending out positive vibes and make a bigger request this time.

if you are familiar with the book "The Secret" and Bestellungen beim Universum, you will know what this is all about.

Saturday, May 2, 2009

books i would like to get...

to buy list:

1) the power of your subconscious mind by Joseph Murphy PHD.

2) thoughts on life and consciousness by Janez Drnovsek

3) into the wild by Jon Krakauer

4) the stuff of thought: language as a window into human nature by Steven Pinker

5) the tipping point by Malcolm Gladwell

6) The Nature of Personal Reality - A Seth Book

7)The Individual and the Nature of Mass Events: A Seth Book

8) The "Unknown" Reality, Volume I and II

and also, the english version of A New World :D
guess it's inevitable for me to splash on books, as always.

Currently reading:
1) The Astral Plane, as introduced to me by JX.
2) The Power of Now (chinese version)

Friday, April 24, 2009

on... impulse.

it is something that we all should love and hate.
it is a part of us that we shouldn't overlook.
acting on impulse, we may be brought into heaven and to hell.

at times, what we need is the courage to make a change and impulse, at that moment, gives us just that. we acted without much deliberation. the result of it, comes in two ways. we may soar high and thrive, yet we may also fall losing grace.

life, prized the bold, the brave. however, life would never hesitate to stop us learning from lesson, so as not to spoil us bad. what spoils us, is our perception about the world and about ourselves. we can't say what perception is right or what perception is wrong, because what is right and wrong is always just a collective perception...

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Friday, April 17, 2009

Susan Boyle... a sparkling diamond.


we always relate women to diamond. and Susan Boyle isn't just about any diamond. she doesn't look one, but she is definitely worth more than just any diamond. without a sparkling appearance, what she has is hidden beneath her ordinary looking self. and within her, is a stunning personality and talent.
you'll see her as a middle age woman, not fearing in pursuing her dreams, and her courage is what we should look up to and learn from.


It's not just about how good she is..

what's more important, is to pay extra attention to the facial expressions of the audiences and the judges. im pretty sure we would have some of those faces shown if we were present and watching the show live! that's human nature- judging and typecasting people.

check out her fansite @

and watch her amazing performance on Youtube @

never judge a book by its cover..
you'll never know what lies underneath a ordinary looking stone- a sparkling diamond.

Thursday, April 16, 2009

Eckhart Tolle- A New World

I had no idea who Eckhard Tolle is, until I read a brief review about his latest book: A New Earth from some magazine (which I forgot). The instant i scanned through the description of the book (which was really brief) I decided I want a copy of this book immediately. So I bought this book a few months back, last year to be exact and started reading.

This type of book that involves deeper discussion on inner self awakening has been my favourite read in recent years. Books by Krishnamurti, Seth/ Jane Roberts are amongst those i like to read for my spiritual growth. To read these books, I cannot just read like reading any other genre of books, because these books stimulates my thinking.
Unlike reading novels, which, you merely had to rely on the descriptions used, to imagine the events of stories that escalates, reading self awakening books like the above mentioned require deeper understanding and more brain cells to process whichever that crosses the path your eyes set on.

I found that Eckhard Tolle work showed signs of Krishnamurti's ideology. Like, Tolle's earlier book, The Power of Now,
emphasizes not being caught up in thoughts of past and future as a way of being aware of the present, this moment. His later book A New Earth further explores the structure of the human ego and how this acts to distract people from their present experience of the world. It is the feeding of the human ego that is thought to be the source of inner and outer conflict. According to Tolle, human ego exists unnoticed by us. It feeds on mostly the negative energies that we emits (angry, hatred, greed, etc) Only in examining one's ego may people begin to see beyond it and obtain a sense of spiritual enlightening or a new outlook on reality.

Reading A New Earth, the readers are given an insight to human nature/behaviour, and of course, the source of all conflicts- human ego. It is a refreshing read, actually, and a very enlightening one, it brought the readers away from being too focused on their daily routines, and to look within themselves, to search for the "self" that is long forgotten.

There are a lot of different sections in this book, which touched on almost every aspect of our lives. what interested me most, is the part which mentioned the ego of being a parent, and also the ego of being a reknown celebrity. it is something that reinforce their societal roles, and that, is a part of their ego. as our parents aged, they tend to feel more urgency to stabilise their social role as a parent. this is because ego feeds on what we thought is our character/ role (which is instilled into our life system through socialization).

and more.. and more...

if you want to understand more on ego, read his book and you'll know a thing or two about your own ego as well.

his books offers too much that it's recommendable for people like us (who are living a busy life), especially when his words are comprehendable for even those who just started to read spiritual books as such. his book is a good start, to guide you into reading and understanding spirituality. (nothing superstitious here, it's more about spiritual growth).

have fun reading! :)

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

Monday, April 13, 2009

on flowers and the bee- the larger meaning behind this

what's going on behind this simple yet beautiful blue flower?

a busy bee doing its job.


at most time, we just focus on what is explicitly presented ahead of us.
therefore even if we knew life is more than the thing that we are focusing on, we wouldn't care about the others that much, because it is not as prominent.
and we have the propensity to go for the obvious, at most time, aren't we?
but if we exert a little more effort, or take a small risk and step ahead (may it be one full step, or half a step), the view would be different.
you will be amazed by the larger world that you have yet to explore.
life is not just about your own life.
it's about all others.
because our lives are interdependant.

Thursday, April 9, 2009

Karaoke with Christine and her mom

karaoke @ RedBox the Curve..
gosh.. perhaps it was a weekday, and it was 11am, everything wasn't heat up much!
no air conds.. the lights flickered a bit as we sung. > <>

taken some pictures while karaoke-ing. :P MESSY table.. haha

the tissue was used to wipe the spoons actually.

pretty bestie.. :P

after karaoke, we just can't find a place to get a good photo with a good backdrop.

so we ended up posing in front of... this logo of the Crocs, which is made up of colourful circles.

then I take pictures with Christine's mom ^_______^

take 1 take 2
Christine's mom is very savvy and hip, enjoyed hanging out with her that day! hehe

then taken one with Christine.. i am taller in this picture, thanks to my heels. :P

and lastly...

thank you for having me for this outing! ^^ had a great time. :P

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Dark chocolate...

I always have the crave for chocolate...
the sweetness perhaps, and the softness as the chocolate melts in my mouth.
in recent years, I start to crave for dark chocolate especially..
where one will first taste the bitter, and then the sweetness comes soon after.
yes, the bittersweet taste of dark chocolate.
also, because it's proven that consuming dark chocolate is healthier than milk chocolate, that I love it even more.
some milk chocolate has too much sweetness that comes on too strong at even the 1st bite, which is not to my liking..
one will not prefer dark chocolate because of its bitterness.
however, as you indulge in it, you'll find it harder to resist.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

Thought of the Day- growing strong

one of the strength we should possess, to stand alone and still growing strong.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

UCSI Bunkasai Night 2009 Video

I love emceeing.
it's pretty cool to see myself in action on stage.

try to catch me in the video. aha
here's it is. EnJOY! ^__________^

my New Camera- a birthday present i get for myself

it's my birthday in about 2 weeks time. and i thought it would be nice to get something for myself this year. :P

as the 5-year old camera submitted its resignation letter and showed protest through some malfunctioning, I decided that it is time for it to get some rest.. so goodbye to my Sony Cybershot and hello to my new Panasonic Lumix FS6.

Life without a camera just does not feels right. Everytime i come across a scene or moment in life that is worth capturing, i find out that my old camera is no longer usable. and i am the type who loves to take pictures.

Having zero idea of the digital camera market and how the nowadays camera has evolved to, (i just know that there's 14 M.P. now.. SLR/DSLR probably..) I thought doing a little survey would help. Although i would really love to get a SLR/DSLR, but i have a limited budget. therefore i looked for digital camera priced within the range of RM600. (I am not rich, so.. will settle for this range for now)
I went around some malls to do my survey on digital cameras, comparing the functions and such. At long last, i came to this store in 1 Utama.. after making some comparison between Sony, Panasonic, Samsung and Canon, i decided on Lumix (with 2GB SD card free).
well, there's no need to tell me that i can get a better price elsewhere. I just happen to go to 1 Utama with my family, and just happen to go to this electrical store, and so on the spot i decided to buy there and then. coz i am the type of person who prefer to save the hassle, who prefer not to get to some malls somewhere which is situated quite a distance away, just to get a price that is 50 ringgit cheaper. (if there is any, haha. oh wait, maybe there is.)

I simply love this camera that i get. For one, it is light and is not as big in size when i compare it to other models of other brands (within the budget) and also those in the Lumix series. and... i know i am not a PINK person, well, i am not. but somehow, the lack of PINK in my life seems to get a bit bored so i decided that welcoming a little bit of PINK into my life is not a bad thing at all. (i am more of a WHITE/RED person, depends on my mood of the day.)

FS6 seems to come along with some features that i am not so familiar with..
  • features a 2.7” LCD screen
  • equipped with iA mode
  • Face detection & Intelligent Scene Selector
  • MEGA O.I.S.
  • Leica DC Vario-Elmarit zoom lens
  • Photo Title naming
i'll get familiar with it in no time i guess. coz i love gadgets! love to explore gadgets, especially. hehe
and so, here it is.. my PINK Lumix FS6. ^__________^

I will make sure it will be well taken care of and live a long and respectable years ahead. xD

and below are some 1st pictures taken using the new camera.. :P not some quality pictures but normal pictures of normal people like my family and my neighbour. hehe

the shy lil girl.. nah! she's actually quite an active girl..
i still need some time to get familiar with the features of the camera.. LOL
look at the difference in lighting between the two pictures!

would get spare some time in trying out the features...
and start to take more quality pictures in future. HEHE

Monday, March 30, 2009


simple life, simple me.
is it as simple as it sounds?
however simple one thing appears, there's always a series of complicated stories behind it.
it can be a simple situation/ phenomena of raining, but the series of events that lead to the rain is actually hidden from our sense, hidden from our knowing, unless we go deeper to research on it.
it can be a smile, a simple radiant smile. it may be a sincere smile, because that girl just received the best news ever; it may be an insincere smile, because that girl thought her friend back-stabbed her.
and i believe you got the point.
every moment is life in its simplest form.
at every moment, every little things that aggregate is the sums of whatever present in front of us now. it may be a si
tuation we are in, it may be an emotion we are encountering.
so whenever i tell myself that i just want it to be simple without much complications involve, it hardly works that way.
everything and everyone is interdependent, and that's the nature of life.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

Outing @ sushi zanmai

before heading out.. :P

met Christine and Fun fun at KTM kepong.. this is Christine.. fun fun wasn't in her best condition coz she was too tired working in the past few days so reluctant to appear caught in camera.

waited in Food Garden for an hour... and again fun fun is not in the frame..

Christine insisted us to each take 4 packets of the crisps she bought from UK. xD Casryn seemed delighted. hehe

Funfun and Christine.. ^^ we can no longer waited as the clock ticked to 1 in the afternoon so we decided to wait in line for suhsi zanmai instead.. (more waiting.. LOL) so what we did was.. photo session. xD

Christine and Casryn...
and me, joined in.. xD

okay my head tilted too high. haha

at 1.30pm, most of the girls arrived and joined us in the frame.

and me as well. xD

cute right? haha

getting the crisps tht travelled all the way from UK... xD

Kai's expression was pretty amusing. haha
our first dish. :P some of the tea are half full.. xD

our second dish.. xD

nicely taken!

Sherly loves photo-taking as much as i do. hehe

ming ming started this.. xD

sherly got excited abt this idea..

hehe.. i joined in the fun as well.. ^^


this one is GOOD! ^_^


the green stuff is AVOCADO~ xD this dish is named as caterpillar ... whatever that follows.

additional dishes.. :P

and more desserts that followed. :) that.. we kinda forgot to snap pictures of. lol

chai wen with her bowl of Ebidon... whatever the name is. which tasted GOOD. :P

we stayed there eating and enjoying and having green tea for more than 3 hours... hehe
it's our group norm to chat away in whichever restaurant/ cafe as long as possible whenever there's a meet up like this one.
it was GREAT fun!

Group pic!! :P

the outing was organised to celebrate Christine's comeback from UK for easter break holiday. just wish she can stay longer. xD