Act as if what you do makes a difference. It does.

- William James

i wouldn't mind being alone...

because it is when i am by myself that i can find solitude and calmness from all chaotic and numbness. plus, if i can't even enjoy my own company, who else will enjoy be in my company? :)

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing is the same.

there you are again...

confusing images flashes passed
playing in its soundless way
every single colour are in their places accordingly
everything seemed real.
the emotions are, the senses are.

the appearance of you after so long proves it true that there are still some pieces of you in me.
which, is so not suppose to be still around.

is this a sign to hold me back? a sign that comes from deep within?

the thing i yearn the most, is the thing i can't have. it seems.

exploring Tumblr

Dudes and peeps and friends and everyone!

lately i am sooo, very into blogging at tumblr! and MY! am I in love with my blog layout at Tumblr! :D the blog layout colour changes each and everytime the page is refreshed. haha. awesome. suits to my liking. hehe

and no, this is not the plan i blogged abt in the previous post. this is merely the interest i started during my hectic exam. oh yes, i still blog during exam. even the night before exam, coz i find blogging very comforting. xD

so, yeah.. Tumblr.. you have to see it for yourself to know how cool it is. :)

here, link to my blog at Tumblr, Just Thoughts.

i only came into knowing Tumblr in JULY 2009!!! through an official website of an interactive copywriter name Zach Golden. i know right?! i am SOOO outdated! hahaha
i would still use Thoughts. Stories. Me. and You for sure. so don't forget to still come back here often for updates! :D both blogs will have different kinda updates. you'll have to observe then you'll know how they differ! :P hehehe

here's some snapshots of my Tumblr blog- Just Thoughts! :) love all the colours!


there's are more colours! xD but these snapshots already said more than enough. :)

cheers,
love ya!

Heroic warrior

nothing gets more exciting than this.
the end is here and it as it marks the start of another
the sense of anticipation grows ever stronger.

i am no heroic warrior.
but even the greatest warrior sense fear, the only element that set us apart is that they counter fear and beat it.

therefore in the face of fear i always tell myself
be brave, don't run.
problems would be unresolved if i run.

therefore i make myself face fear and doubts.
because i know what matters most at the end of the day is to get through it all and then and there i shall get my reward.

preferably...

after months and months of deliberation..
the obvious answer stood out.
at this stage of life...
preferably... no strings attached would be the best option of all.
i am not the type that understand what a relationship is.
i guess.

on... blogging

Haven’t been active in blogging for a while now. In blogging terms, my blog was almost to the point of drying stage.But that doesn’t mean nothing had been going through my mind, or that ideas are drying out.

Ideas never dried out. Never. It’s just that whether the ideas generated in our mind are merely cliché, that has been said and said like a scratchy old song.

However, it is quite hard to do something original.

You can say your idea is fresh, and many will say so too. your fresh idea, isn’t it a combination of something out of everything you read, you listen, you encountered in life?

The greatest copywriters all have said not once but a few times in their interview, that they do not have a certain ritual when it comes to generating ideas. Ideas come best when they do not try to force them out of their brain. And most importantly, they READ. They read all kinds of books. They experienced. And that is where all their great ideas come from.

So what makes these great minds so GREAT? It’s their point of view. Many if not most of us, rather prefer to look at things from one plane, at most of the time.

This happens because this one plane/ perspective is the one that MOST people would look at. It has been walked on for far so many times that we have got used to it, comfortable with it, and for us, it is just the way things are. But not for those great thinkers.

You and I and the great thinkers of the century all shared the SAME resources. Can you say what you encounter in life is the one and only, no one has ever been through what you been through? Yes, you can put it that way. But no, in reality, it doesn’t work this way. The only difference between you and the other person, who encountered the same experience, is how you take the experience, and make it yours. One may interpret it differently from another. Some will be greatly affected, some might just been through it and feels as if they had merely suffered a scratch by the mosquitoes.

Thus, this is the line that draws between us and the great thinkers. Great thinkers are who they are because they look at life a little more differently. They are more open to experiences and they, are always ready to take risks. I couldn’t make it even clearer. You all must have heard of or read of this before but it is not easy to execute in life isn’t it? You can say that they are born smart. But I do not hold the opinion that born as a smart kid is going to achieve more than those who don’t. It’s mere pretext. You know, making excuses for oneself, is one of the greatest obstacle that is bound to take you down. Real down. The greatest of the achievers never got to the place they are today in an instant. They worked their way up, from one point to another. Nothing comes easily, and nothing comes FREE in this world. Ok, what you get from your parents may be unconditional, but apart from that, nothing is free. Period. Want something? You have to earn it. (not necessarily in a tangible form)

If you want to generate great ideas, you have to expose, expose, expose. Don’t forget, knowledge is food.

on flowers and the bee- the larger meaning behind this

what's going on behind this simple yet beautiful blue flower?

a busy bee doing its job.

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at most time, we just focus on what is explicitly presented ahead of us.
therefore even if we knew life is more than the thing that we are focusing on, we wouldn't care about the others that much, because it is not as prominent.
and we have the propensity to go for the obvious, at most time, aren't we?
but if we exert a little more effort, or take a small risk and step ahead (may it be one full step, or half a step), the view would be different.
you will be amazed by the larger world that you have yet to explore.
life is not just about your own life.
it's about all others.
because our lives are interdependant.
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Thought of the Day- growing strong

one of the strength we should possess, to stand alone and still growing strong.

simplicity

simple life, simple me.
is it as simple as it sounds?
however simple one thing appears, there's always a series of complicated stories behind it.
it can be a simple situation/ phenomena of raining, but the series of events that lead to the rain is actually hidden from our sense, hidden from our knowing, unless we go deeper to research on it.
it can be a smile, a simple radiant smile. it may be a sincere smile, because that girl just received the best news ever; it may be an insincere smile, because that girl thought her friend back-stabbed her.
and i believe you got the point.
every moment is life in its simplest form.
at every moment, every little things that aggregate is the sums of whatever present in front of us now. it may be a situation we are in, it may be an emotion we are encountering.
so whenever i tell myself that i just want it to be simple without much complications involve, it hardly works that way.
everything and everyone is interdependent, and that's the nature of life.

Barrier

the harder you push against the wall, the bigger the force that you will feel bouncing back at you
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I can't just shrugged off the feeling that there's this barrier that stands in between. the one barrier that i created, that is formed in the hardest period of my lifetime. I fully understand that i am the only one who can break through this barrier and reach out. but how?
perhaps deep down within me, the "self" is still having doubts, and the barrier that is formed is the only shield that can keep me safe.
yes, that might be it. i wanted to protect myself so much that it had become a part of me, that i don't even know it's already "me".

assignments is not everything

at least for me...
wonder why some people can nag so much on the amount of assignments.
don't get me wrong, i take my assignments seriously and i always starts early and try to have them done before deadline.
but i never see them as something that will cost me suffering or whatever. i just simply go ahead and start doing. when people complain to me, i just smile... or say something they want to hear (showing empathy and such)...
but i don't understand why people complain so much, wasting energy, while you can already start to get your brain going, putting small ideas together and finding way to handle the assignments?
it's not that hard, really. if you just put yourself to it.
complaining won't do us any good. it makes matters worst, and it always result in procrastinating.

the same theory goes to how you handle problems and hardships in life. stop complaining and be responsible and take up whatever roles u should be taking. for now, as a student. that is.

random thoughts 180209

有句话道：“不是别人不领情或冷酷无情。。
是你把人与事看得太重了”
凡是放得轻松些，一切都显得更美好。



*笑*
了解自己。学习接纳。拿起。放下。。。
人生是那么的不完美。。但又那么的美好。

imperfections in life, make up for a perfect life.

Ponder...

At this point of life, what have you accomplished?
and at the age of 30,40,50,60,70... what will be the thought that will haunt your mind day in and day out? most of the time, when i lay my eyes on the elders, i ponder...

if i were them, what will i be thinking right now? looking at the younger generations after mine, will i laugh at their annoyance of true happiness? because, i am sure, as we aged, it will become clear for many if not most of us, of what is important. what is the main point of going through our lives. what is to gain and to lose... acceptance to failures and stand up with strengthen willpower. as we aged, and as our youth starting to whish away, should we be sad? are they sad? are they afraid of dying? or will they just get on with their life happily and welcoming the soon to come death with open arms? i doubt they will be afraid of dying, but i am sure what they afraid of, is not death itself. it is the consequences of death- departing with their beloved sons and daughters, and for some, this material world. some, worried if upon their death, they will no longer be remembered. it is ever so vital that our existence or "pre-existence" is remembered, because it is human nature. we want to feel loved and needed. If i were in the position of the elderly, yes, i will be afraid of dying, but it's because i just can't leave all the wonderful people, places and memories behind. may i take all the memories with me?
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50 or 60 years from now, where will i be?

Thought of the Day: Perception

we always let existing perception gets the better of our judgement-- stereotyping others.

Distance

even a milimetre distance away..
can be so captivatingly suffocating.
i am stubborn. those that seem unreachable is always where i am heading.
wanting to get so near, and thus the distance in between became more and more materialsed as if made of cold hard rock.
communications seem hanging like a thin thread, threaten to break at any second.
as i edge nearer, everything seem to be threatening in turning into vapour.
and therefore i moved away, and then it all became foggy and an air of mystery added to the already unreachable.
getting tired of entrapping within this dilemma.
wouldn't it be easier not to care as much about everything in this world?
yes, it would. it will be less of a hassle, too.

Happy New Year 2009!

it's here!
it's NEW YEAR!!!
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that's fast... just a year ago i am still a NEC student. and now...
I am a UCSI student. everything is changing rapidly around me. kinda scared at times, afraid of losing what i already have.
there's nothing that is going to stay forever within my grasp. even when I tighten my grip... some things still slip away. oh well, this is life. therefore we should never take anything for granted. nothing stays forever. nothing. hence it is the period of time we are blessed to have together that we should cherish and living this life full heartedly.

think this over, how many family meals you can have actually? some families are not blessed to have more than 20 meals together per year. and just how many minutes and seconds you can spend with your friends in your lifetime? with your lover? life is just too short to say "it's a boring life".
life is never boring, there's always something to be learned from every encounter we have in every minutes of our lives. think this over... in this new year, look at life from a brand new angle. and make it an awesome new year! :)

Happy 2009! may all be blessed with health, luck and wealth.

personal diary 1

there were a few more personal entries before this but i think i will try to track them from now onwards.

this post is to vent my so called anger. coz i can hardly get angry with this person. but still i want to post about it.

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(here comes my 1st appearance of M'sian slang on my blog)

seriously lahhh...

i dunno what is in your head.

maybe your mind works in a very strange way, or maybe you are just different.

how many times i forgive and forget already.

but still you never change horrr...

told me last year you will change.. yes, you did changed a LITTLE bit.

then you turned back to "normal self" again.

HA... Don't know what has got into you.

FRIENDS leh... friends should treat friends like friends.

you are my friend but i don't think i am your friend loh...

i never stop thinking if there is anything that i have done wrong or whatever...

and i think i know... i care for you too much.

and you never care about whether i am here.

therefore, for the last time i asked myself.

is this a friend worth befriending?

the answer that i get straightly is a NO.

because i am very disappointed in you.

don't say i am being mean.

you are the one who is being mean for all these years.

all i will keep, is keeping you in my contact list.

and that is all.

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要做就做到最好

“要做就做到最好。”很多人都把这句话挂在嘴边，有些人则铭记在心。
而我，也把这句话当成我的座右铭之一。
若要对事情认真看待，就得先调整自己的思想。若自己给一件事情既定的想法，将框框加附在事情上，你将会看到你想要的。没办法发现你不知晓的一面。对人，对事物都一样。
还有不少启发性的名言是我一直相信的。
就好比说: " your state of mind determines your thoughts and emotions" 也就是说你的思想情绪取决于你的思考方式。
面对困境或悲伤，好多人慌了，乱了阵脚。我也一样。我曾尝试暂时撇开当下的情绪，问自己：“这真的有那么困难吗？”“我相信我经得起这个考验".. 之后呢？没错，我的心情好多了。
很多事情，其实并不复杂。是我们把它复杂化了。我们的既定想法= 事情怎么可能那么简单？
没错，就那么简单。只要你转换思考方式，就会发现原来一切就取决于你的思想。