i am stronger than i thought *pray*

i don't know why i can still manage to type right now but i guess i am stronger than i thought.

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my mom went for her regular checkup this morning and came back with a devastating news.

her brain tumour is found growing again.

and the doctor says that it will grow in mass due time...

so what's best is to refrain it from growing.

this is the third time my mom's tumour strikes again. but this time we are lucky that we found it early. (the first two diagnose ain't that lucky, those two tumours were super big when we found them).

it is sad that after the first tumour was removed, the second regrown rapidly in 3 months. and after 3 years, now, it starts to grow again, at the same place, pituitary adenoma, and situating exactly where the optic chiasm is.

she will be fine. I believe so.

Growing tumour in the brain where the optic chiasm is, ain't big deal.

she can go through the first two, she can definitely go through this for the third time.

i am sure she will be fine.

even if she has to go through the third operation, she will be fine.

because we will be there for her.

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even if she can't make it...

well, i am the kind of person who tend to have even the tabooed thinking.

even if eventually i can't have more time with her...

even if these 3 years is the only period that my mom managed to get back to our family after the brain tumour in 2005, i will never regret. because these 3 years have been the best time i have with my mom

*pray*

and *pray*

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she is a wonderful mother.

and she is kind.

she deserves more goodness.

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