Chosen Quotes to Share with (Twenty)- Sentiment

I don't play accurately-any one can play accurately- but I play with wonderful expression.

As far as the piano is concerned, sentiment is my forte. I keep science for Life.
-Oscar Wilde

Algernon from The Importance of Being EarnestIrish dramatist, novelist, & poet (1854 - 1900)

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Chosen Quotes to Share with (EIGHTEEN)

Selfishness is not living as one wishes to live, it is asking others to live as one wishes to live.
-Oscar Wilde

Irish dramatist, novelist, & poet (1854 - 1900)

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one may disagree. but some of those times when we hear someone saying "it is the best way for you", "believe me, this is what you should do", "you don't know more than i do and i think you...", "you should try to not go against your parents' will" etc.

you won't agree but don't you think there is some degree of manipulation? they do not hope to see you going against their hope.

perhaps, yes... they don't think the path or way of things you are taking charge is the best way, not a better way than what they have in mind. and yes, you may have their best interest at heart and they are showing that they do care about you.

but, as they are telling you what to do and what not to do, they are sweeping off the privilege of yours to take charge of your own life.

you may think "selfishness" is a strong word. but it is not that strong if you realise there is some degree of selfishness in them, who are having their hopes on you, hoping that you won't let them down, and work towards what they think is best for you.

what they do not wish to see is, your rebellion.

to live a life they wishes you to live.

Chosen Quotes to Share with (SEVENTEEN)

Most modern calendars mar the sweet simplicity of our lives by reminding us that each day that passes is the anniversary of some perfectly uninteresting event.
-Oscar Wilde

Irish dramatist, novelist, & poet (1854 - 1900)

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this is what we always do, setting up dates to make our lives to seem more fulfilling and packed with events.

and those events, if we take a real closer look at them, some are not that exciting and interesting as they seem.

not unless you pour meaning to the events.

it is when we pour in passion to the events in our lives that they will come alive and exciting and worth anticipating for.

circled a few dates, marked with a star or marked with some symbols that has certain meaning to you, and prepare yourself anticipating for the day to come.

may it be an outing, a date, a party, a gathering, a meeting, a tour, a trip, whatever.

live is made easier with these anticipations.

without these in our lives, it will all seem too pale, and off colour.

Single= ALONE?

A: Do you have a BF?

B: Currently nope.

A: Do you feel alone?

B: Won't lah... enjoy being single.

A: You like to be alone ah? No one adore you one le...

B: HAHA.. no idea.

A: gtg... anyway good chat... would like to talk to you again. anyway, you are cute.

B: thanks. bye and drive safe.

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you must be wondering.. what was that?

well, that was a conversation i had with some guy from KL.

i call him some guy because i have no idea who he is, how he get my msn or whatever. when i approved his msn request, i thought he is my classmate or friend, never thought he is a stranger.

it seems so that he is interested in chatting and knowing about me. okay, that is not why i blog about this.

the thing that intrigues me is... this.

WHY do being single being labelled as "ALONE" "LONELY" ?

"do you feel alone"? he asked.

this question has already made me feel like.. if i being a little more flirty and whining all about the loneliness i am having, he will tell me the same and then he will surely make a move.

okay, put that aside, because i said something he has not anticipated.

i am not alone, and i am enjoying every moment of singlehood.

there are so many things i can do being single!

and until i met that someone who makes me has a heart failure (in a good way) and making me all soft inside, i think i can tell you... YES i am enjoying being single.

why enjoying being single equals to being ALONE?

and how will enjoying being single affecting someone's feeling towards me?

just affecting how he sees me, perhaps.

totally random (ONE) something Magical

i need some magic. =P

to make something magical..

personal diary 1

there were a few more personal entries before this but i think i will try to track them from now onwards.

this post is to vent my so called anger. coz i can hardly get angry with this person. but still i want to post about it.

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(here comes my 1st appearance of M'sian slang on my blog)

seriously lahhh...

i dunno what is in your head.

maybe your mind works in a very strange way, or maybe you are just different.

how many times i forgive and forget already.

but still you never change horrr...

told me last year you will change.. yes, you did changed a LITTLE bit.

then you turned back to "normal self" again.

HA... Don't know what has got into you.

FRIENDS leh... friends should treat friends like friends.

you are my friend but i don't think i am your friend loh...

i never stop thinking if there is anything that i have done wrong or whatever...

and i think i know... i care for you too much.

and you never care about whether i am here.

therefore, for the last time i asked myself.

is this a friend worth befriending?

the answer that i get straightly is a NO.

because i am very disappointed in you.

don't say i am being mean.

you are the one who is being mean for all these years.

all i will keep, is keeping you in my contact list.

and that is all.

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END

Empty Your Mind

万念俱空

EMPTY YOUR MIND

Solitary...

LIVING at the PRESENT.

Savour it and LIVE with it.

Result... Sept- Oct 08

GOsh!

i know i shouldn't complain about my results because i was really less passionate in that semester. and look at the result of my less passionate self!

the first 4 subjects were of the 1st semester, which i did well overall.

and the lower 2 subjects, were of the 2nd semester (September), and look at that! >___<

hope i won't lost my loan because of this subject.

moral of the story

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put your best foot forward in everything. don't ever has negative attitude towards anything.

i had negative attitude towards that subject, and that is what i get as a result.

seriously! > <

short story 1: a path of my own

A father in his late twenties and his 5-year-old son are on their way to another village.

the path that they are taking is one that has been existing for years, walked by hundreds and thousands of people before them.

the son, out of curiosity, eventually gets off from the path and walks on his own instead.

from his father's perspective, a path that has never been trodden on might have some unseen dangerous lurking around. and thus he cries "come back here, son! it's too dangerous to walk out of the main path!"

the son, retorts "daddy daddy, see? i did not fell! i am walking a path of my own!"

the father is taken aback by his little son's simple and straight forward thought, and as he looks on, he sees that behind his young son, there is a small and light trail, footsteps of his son is clearly evident. the path the father is taking, on the other hand, there's not even one footstep of his own left on the path he is taking.

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walking a path of our own sometimes means breaking the conventional structure, and will usually meets lots of downs than ups.

roads and paths never existed until we trodden on it day by day, one person per another. but we cannot just rely on the existed path or following it forever, it's safe yes but it also guarantees not as much chance of personal development.

to succeed, is to risk.

to risk, is to learn knowing how to let go of certain things, things that you have got used to too much that you starts relying on it.

and learning how to let go helps because letting go meaning the acceptance of newer and fresher things.

walking a path of our own is never easy.

but it is worth trying.

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wenQ's Space

i have a new blog up!

it's called... wenQ's Space!

and it serves a totally different purpose.

Thoughts. Stories. Me. and You. will be all about written blog posts, while wenQ's Space will be all about recordings. =)

this is the first page of wenQ's Space, click on the links provided (light brown) for the available tracks.

most importantly, listen to the "WELCOME" track. it is in dual language. (eng+chinese)

i will try to update as often as possible, please show support because your support motivates me! =D

cheers for pursuing our dream!

local tv personality

lately i came across personal facebook profile of one of the fresh faces in local private TV (which is open for public viewing)..

i was not shocked to see him (yes it's a he) having lots of wild photos as he came back from western countries. the thing that concerned me is not his pictures, or his wildness.
the thing that concerned me is, WHAT IF there are youths that idolised him, make him their role model that they tend to think being wild, getting drunk and drinking is COOL (okay maybe it IS COOL in some sense) he has got the money, the face as tv personality, and he get to hang out with pretty young ladies.

OK. so now, local youths, when they see these pics, what will they think? WHOA! that's HOT? yeah i did have that came across my head.
but from the perspective of a media practitioner, and as local tv personality, he has got the responsibility to act up to it. maybe he is still young and fresh in media therefore it got into his head that he did not realise the importance of it.

he is enjoying being the celebrity but forgetting his responsibility as a public figure (who appears on TV almost on a daily basis)

i am not attacking him or whatever, because that is his life. xD that is what he enjoys doing.

however, it will be good if he just set his profile into private viewing, so that people who stumble across his profile would not be as much (unless they become friends).

Chosen Quotes to Share with (SEVENTEEN)

The undertaking of a new action brings new strength.
- Evenius

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this happens because your mind and soul as one, knows new actions equals to new beginning and they are putting all their energy in making it possible.

抒发情感 之 一

人生之途 总不会太平坦

想战胜一切挫折 得提起勇气面对为佳

来个深深的吸气

希望能让我的心。。。

静如止水

也希望我外表上的乐观可以为您带来欢笑。

为您抹去脸上、心上的惆怅

别为我担心

我绝不会让您看见我流下一滴眼泪。

a note from Dr Kua

the fact that I am not an english educated, i do faced some difficulties in putting what i have in mind into words. so here's a note written by Dr Kua himself, as published at Salute to Dr Kua Kia Soong.

the current issue of NEC is being discussed, and of course of how the current grave situation of chinese higher education is at stake.

READ ON. =)

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SAVE NEW ERA COLLEGE

By Kua Kia Soong, Principal, 20 Nov 2008

The Soul of Malaysian Chinese Education, Lim Lian Geok’s well-known exhortation, “To Combat Sabotage, the Best Response is to be Constructive”, was directed at the ruling UMNO party’s oppression of our Chinese school system. Through these many years of struggle for mother tongue education led by our illustrious leaders such as Lim Fong Seng and Sim Mow Yu, we have not floundered in our efforts to be constructive in all our undertakings.

After ten years of hard work constructing New Era College, we have suddenly under the Dong Zong leadership of Yap Sin Tian been confronted with sabotage by, of all people, the Dong Jiao Zong leadership! What would our elders Lim Lian Geok and Lim Fong Seng think of such destructive actions by DJZ leaders? Heaven knows!

We know that our elders Mr Sim Mow Yu and Mr Teo Gah San have asked for the status quo to be preserved and for the college leadership to prevail at least for another year. But somehow, the Dong Zong chairman Yap’s “ultimate objective” since he came into office three years ago has been to get rid of Mr Bock Tai Hee as the Dong Zong Secretariat CEO and to get rid of me as the NEC principal. Incidentally, Mr Bock and I happen to be “thorns in the flesh” of the Barisan Nasional government all these years because of our uncompromising defence of mother tongue education, democracy and human rights. After my recent best-seller “May 13”, the Umno leaders all the more want me out of the Chinese Education movement. Getting rid of Mt Bock and I will be Yap’s greatest achievements since he came into office in 2005!

The Bock Tai Hee episode will be recorded in a chapter of my future book entitled “Black Operation”(莫黑行动)，in which we shall see the machinations by Yap and his goons to discredit Mr Bock who has contributed more to the Chinese education movement than Mr Yap could ever dream of. In this 2008 NEC controversy, we have seen the same shameful attempts to blacken my name. I shall probably name this chapter of my book “Operation Fell Kua”（伐柯行动）！

In this process, Yap and his goons have used unscrupulous methods to try to discredit me without caring about destroying the college which we have arduously built these ten years. This can be seen in their scurrilous document “Zhenxiang” sent all over the country, the published views of directors Gao Mingliang and Zhang Guangming” in the magazine “Haowai” and others.

Throughout this NEC controversy, we have witnessed the most heart-warming surge of support for us in the college who they know have contributed so much to make NEC a truly “peoples’ college”. People from all sections of the community have sent us their passionate support. Intellectuals with a conscience in the community and in truth, justice and democracy have written in the mainstream and internet press to support us and to debate against those who have tried to destroy us.

We will be publishing a compilation of articles by all the righteous people who have written in so passionately to support us and to save new Era College. It is also intended to expose the destructive actions of Yap and his goons whose agenda seem bent on getting rid of me as the principal of NEC at the bidding of their political masters. More importantly, these articles and documents are a testimony to the efforts of all the staff, students and community supporters who have worked these ten years to make “New Era Education” what it is today.

This controversy revolves around the three principles which NEC campus culture represents, namely, campus autonomy, academic freedom and students’ self-government. It started when Yap wanted to set up a committee to hire and fire the college heads of department. This we considered to be an infringement of the college administration’s autonomy. When that failed, he went against a time-honoured DJZ tradition of participatory democracy and inclusive spirit by asking the college heads of department to leave the June 14 Senate meeting. The rest is history…

This controversy is certainly not about Kua Kia Soong being the perpetual principal of NEC. I would like to put on record that ever since I joined the Chinese Education movement in 1983, I have never asked for any appointments. All the appointments have been offered to me. Similarly, I have never asked to continue to be the principal of NEC since I retired in 2005. My contract has been renewed on an annual basis since then. It was my HoDs who asked for my contract to be renewed when this controversy started.

I have since issued a press statement saying that I am prepared to serve the college and community only because the staff and students of NEC want me to continue to lead since they are apprehensive about the DJZHLC directors’ motives and intentions. We have already established a quality management system with an ISO 2001 certification in 2007 and audit approval by two British universities, University of Gloucestershire and University of West of England.

By the way, we welcome any capable academic and administrator who can lead the college. The only condition is that this person should have good academic credentials and uphold the college principles of campus autonomy, academic freedom and students’ self-government. Any principal of New Era College must be prepared to stand up for the principles of the Malaysian Chinese Education Movement and stand up against the shameful sabotage by Yap and his goons.

COMBAT SABOTAGE!SAVE NEW ERA COLLEGE!

i am stronger than i thought *pray*

i don't know why i can still manage to type right now but i guess i am stronger than i thought.

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my mom went for her regular checkup this morning and came back with a devastating news.

her brain tumour is found growing again.

and the doctor says that it will grow in mass due time...

so what's best is to refrain it from growing.

this is the third time my mom's tumour strikes again. but this time we are lucky that we found it early. (the first two diagnose ain't that lucky, those two tumours were super big when we found them).

it is sad that after the first tumour was removed, the second regrown rapidly in 3 months. and after 3 years, now, it starts to grow again, at the same place, pituitary adenoma, and situating exactly where the optic chiasm is.

she will be fine. I believe so.

Growing tumour in the brain where the optic chiasm is, ain't big deal.

she can go through the first two, she can definitely go through this for the third time.

i am sure she will be fine.

even if she has to go through the third operation, she will be fine.

because we will be there for her.

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even if she can't make it...

well, i am the kind of person who tend to have even the tabooed thinking.

even if eventually i can't have more time with her...

even if these 3 years is the only period that my mom managed to get back to our family after the brain tumour in 2005, i will never regret. because these 3 years have been the best time i have with my mom

*pray*

and *pray*

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she is a wonderful mother.

and she is kind.

she deserves more goodness.

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understanding

the best way to understand someone/something is to get close and personal with them.

if you never come into contact with someone/something, it is likely that the perception you have about them has high inaccuracy, this is natually caused by lack of understanding.

there's nothing better than experiencing by yourself, that is, get to know that person pronto or start experiencing the one thing that you thought you will never want to get near to.

most of the time, we experienced some sort of "laziness" to get to the bottom of things, and just accept things as they are presented from the outside.

and most of the time, what presented from the outside does not reflect what is within.

our perceptions are very much influenced by "first impression" that most of us hang onto that impression we have had the first time we come into contact with a particular someone or thing.

sometimes, even before we met someone or thing, we heard about them right?

like maybe from a close friend, classmates, colleagues.

we will then have a perception about the person in question, perception that is given or so to say "transferred" from your friend to us.

and i believe many if not most of you must have experienced this.

when you really get to know this person or thing that is being talked about, you realised he or she or it is not that bad afterall.

the reason to this? just as mentioned earlier, "understanding" plays a big role in this.

perceptions varies individually and therefore when you experienced it yourself, you will have a whole different thinking about some1 or something.

it is easy to understand.

yet, all along our lives, misunderstandings occur.

because sometimes, we are just too lazy to reach out and try to understand.

pondering love

当你选择放弃你的最爱时，别想再能将它找回来。- 胡佳伟

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a friend of mine ended her relationship lately.

he was not the love of her life, but she was still pretty sad when it ended.

he wasn't her loved one; she wasn't his either.

lacking of passion made their relationship go stale.

who is your loved one?

whom would you sacrifice for the most?

would you let go, even when you can hardly live without him/her?

when you sacrifice your love, will you ever find the same love ever again?

is love replaceable?

some say "no"...

some think "superficially yes, but deep down and truly, they think it is irreplaceable"

some say "yes".

is it possible to have two most loved?

no? why not?

why is it always just ONE?

i am not implying anything, i am just pondering.

what do you think?

Chosen Quotes to Share with (SIXTEEN)

Rudeness is the weak man's imitation of strength.

- Eric Hoffer

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what we see as rude may be a way someone is trying to be defensive of himself, stand firmly to his perception, as a mark of strength.

therefore the more rudeness ones show, sometimes i would feel sorry for them. because i know, deep down, there must be some past that has hurt their "self" / "ego" so much that it's wounded or scarred.

to defend themselves against more hurtful experience, they tend to separate themselves from others. it won't be easy to gain their trust, so until that day, he or she will appear less friendly, more to a rude manner, in order to keep possible threats at bay.

we gathered. as one.

we gathered.
from under the bright sun, till it started to rain.

we stood together.

we held up our hands. we waved, and clapped.

i had never thought i would be this touched by these elderly people, by these supportive parents and students and the supporters of chinese education.

tears almost break its barrier when i talked to DR Kua (our respectful principal).

i didn't know i would be this... this... emotional.

i seldom had opportunity to talk to DR Kua, therefore those moments that we exhanged convo will always be kept in mind.

i admit, i have lesser passion than any of them present today, for local chinese education.

i am an end product of eight years of chinese education, but i do not have the passion as much as those who would raise flags and walk the street in bright daylight and giving strong speeches and all.

BUT

one thing is for sure

i am thankful.

i will never forget those who contributed to the new me.

the place that has given me so much.

the place that is built by the self-less people.

self-less chinese educated fighters.

i am so honoured to be able to listen to every word coming out from the best minds in chinese community.

their words boost through my every vein, my every living cell.

(seriously, it is THAT influencing and touching)

most of the elder speakers bowed to the audience (even at their age!)

they are like our role models, yet they bowed.

then it struck me, they are not bowing to just the audience, they are bowing to the chinese at large.

bowing to the supporters of chinese education.

i am also pleased to see that our juniors are so responsible, strong and confident. and most importantly, they are very independent and critical.

they are awesome!

im touched by their speeches too.

the right to exercise academic freedom, campus freedom is our goal.

can we do that if... the situation persist?

we do not want to lose of "home"

but for now and always, NEC is our home.

p/s: *more photos in the next post*

one touching reply so far...

after my Nov 10th note on "show your support if you are a part of the chinese community..."

i got no reply so far from anyone until now.

and i got it from my friend Sharyn on Facebook.

i posted this note on Facebook notes as well and tagged lots of people who is related to New Era College, sadly though, i only get one reply from all of my coursemates and friends.

i know, some people hold the thinking that "it is too late to do anything" "there is nothing we can do" "why would they demonstrate anyway" "why causing so much trouble" etc.

it is never too late. it is this kind of strength that we students should have.

in chinese we say 追根究底, which means no giving up till you unearth the truth or understand something.

we as graduated students feel sorry and sad for the juniors.

we feel sorry if we lost this place we once called home.

we feel sorry for our own community that if NEC changed its form, flushing chinese education system out of its new system.

we do not want to lose our remaining stronghold of chinese education.

even now, 10 months since i graduated, i can hardly recognise NEC anymore.

the rapid changes have shaken NEC.

and now shaken even more and it comes in tides.

what can i say? my heart is still with NEC, rise and fall.

with all my heart i hope it will rise back up and for the better.

Cutie's Award

OH! OH! OH!

i got TWO Cutie Blogger Award!!!

wait... Should i write in pink? LOLz

just kidding.

first of all, thanks to this cutie sugar bunnies, Babymina for this award!

and then, thanks to another sweet gal Jocelyn for this award! *giggles*

So here's the rules that you should obey if you are tagged.

1. each blogger must post this rules.

2. each blogger starts with ten random facts/habbits about themselves.

3. blogger that are tagged need write about their own blog their ten things and post these rules . you need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.

4. don`t forget to live them comment telling them they`ve been tagged and to read your blog .

..:::..Ten Random Facts About Me..:::..

1. I like reading.
2. I love my mom and dad and my family members.
3. I love my friends.
4. I am the type of person who forgives easily. (forgive n forget)
5. I like to move it move it. lol
6. I like to watch movies.
7. I like karaoke.
8. I started my exercise regime since April this year! LOLz
9. I performed my own choreography three times in two years.
10. I like to go out and meet people.

and I tag these awesome people I know. EVERYONE.

out of the existing thinking

the following extract is taken and translated from a book call

"Small story, Positive Strength"

"it is a night visited by heavy rain and such lightning that roams the night sky. You are on your way back home, driving and your car is loaded. And as you drove, you passed through a bus station. There were three people still waiting for their bus, all sitting anxiously, shivering in the cold night air. One of the three, is an old lady, who seem to be feeling rather ill, all pale on her face, and next to her is a man who happen to be your life savior, who works as a doctor. he is taking care of the old lady, with a look of concern. And also sitting next to the old lady, is your dream lover.

Feeling anxious and without hesitation, you drove over. IF you may only take ONE passenger. WHO would you choose?"

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the answer comes naturally, of course, would be the old lady. she is the most fragile of the three and she needs instant ride to the medical centre.

but if you choose the doctor, it is quite logical and acceptable as well because he is your life savior and you think you owe him a big one.

and if you choose to take your dream lover then, well it can be acceptable coz who knows when will you ever see a woman this perfect again?

but why not you choose to answer this way?

hand over your car keys, let the doctor drive the old lady to the medical centre and stay back with your dream girl/ boy and wait for the bus to come.

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there. life is saved, and you get to know your dream lover.

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i know, this short extract has lots of loopholes in it.

not really logical but then, the point i want to put across is,

most of the time, we are trapped within a linear thinking. and we just follow the expected thinking style that we become so predictable and lifeless (in terms of having repetitive old ideas).

and soon, we lose interest that we stop stimulate our mind and stop giving more ideas.

holding the perception "i am not going to be able to give brilliant ideas anyway"

NO NO NO...

don't give up on yourself that easily.

you read, you listened, you watched, you learned, you experienced.

and that is what makes stimulates your ideas.

one is different from another, and you already know that.

so don't doubt your mind.

you will be surprised what brilliant ideas that are hidden underneath/ behind the barrier you set for yourself.

the pretender

伪装。

好多人都在伪装，说得好听点，是角色扮演。

尤其是没能做自己想做的事情的人，伪装的程度的太深而将自己内化成那个角色。

将真实的自己埋藏在深处。总是会觉得为什么自己总是难以得到快乐。

伪装是我们都必须学习的“技能”。。

打从我们成长的那一天，就必须开始学会伪装。

新纪元风波

可悲~ 观察了一段日子，我也按捺不住要说了。

很多人都对新纪元学院不很了解。也对在籍学生和毕业生很不了解。缺少高素质的教育和学生？试问你们曾真正步入新纪元学院了解过么？

今天在AI FM的时事开讲话题，提到了新纪元风波。。请了刘国伟和时事评论员Jamaluddin上台探讨此课题。

从部分的听众的口吻，他们对新纪元升办大学的来龙去脉毫无头绪。把责任推在院长甚至是教职员身上身上。要是院长和教职员没有付出，你们认为这么多年来华社在精神和金钱上会继续给与支持吗？升办大学的事实 非圈外人所能理解。着实是有苦难言。一言难尽。相信在籍学生和毕业生对此都很了解。从前副主席莫先生被辞退直到今年媒体系讲师被要求离开，说穿了其实已经是一切开始变化的演变局面。

董教总的答案对学生、家长、教职员及华社来说是很重要的。为什么学生家长和教职员会出来为院长声援？因为他们都认为董教总的决定过程很不公开，也作的太急促。他们要求的是知道"WHY?" 这追根就底的精神是值得嘉许的。

了解董教总的结构的人，应该都清楚特大并非拥有最后的决定权。理事会呢？独大呢？

董教总的答案对华社很重要。为什么？因为新纪元学院是民办的。董教总和其他大专不一样，董教总是要为华教负责的。华社出钱出力，华社的声音是不可忽略的。并非董教总独自可以决定的。

很赞同学生的做法，他们表现了校园自主的精神。有听众提出“马大也是换校长，怎么不见学生出来乱？” 哇! 什么说法？他们的校长是和新纪元院长怎么能比较？情况很明显也不一样吧？

所以说，请大家在了解事情后才评断吧。

好了，不多说了。。

最后。。希望董教总早日给与大家一个解答。也希望这风波慢慢平息下来。

show your support if you are a part of the chinese community...

view this to show support! =)

we need your support.

for all friends out there...

a lot of chinese people in Malaysia still do not really understand about NEC, especially the younger generations, and also those attended government high school. some, never even heard of it. some, heard of it, but never really try to understand it.

a crisis has landed to the hope of chinese academic .

it has been our dream to set up an university of our own (chinese community) with its own set of academic system.

after years of hard fought, the forefathers had succeeded in building up private chinese high schools, and in later years, fight to set up a university but failed.

years later, New Era College was born, in 1998.

New Era College has been the representative of the strength and is a stronghold of chinese community, the strength to carry on the chinese educational system, a rather different system than the other local colleges and universities provide.

Dr. Kua, the principal of NEC has been onto this daunting task to lead our way to be upgraded into a university status.

As one of the graduated students, i daresay that NEC is very different than any other colleges and universities and thus we are proud of that.

the rapid changes by the board of directors is a threat to the campus democracy of the students, and also the academic freedom (contents of teaching that differs from other colleges).

discontinuing of the principal seem to be the last and bolder move of all by the board of directors. the board of directors in reality do not have the ultimate power to determine the selection of principals. WHY? because NEC is a community college, built up by the financial support of the local chinese community.

without the chinese local nations support, NEC would not have stand till this day.and also without people like those before of us, NEC would never born. and without people like Dr Kua, who is ever so active and ever so bold in voicing out his own oppositional views, chinese higher academic has no more future. (i am sorry to sound so negative but, yet... if you know more about this, you will think the same as we do.)

if Dr Kua has done anything wrong, it is that he is brave enough to stand against those in power. If he is not a good principal, why would the students stand out to support him? why on earth would the 5 head of departments resigned in protest? why would ALL lead of departments all signed to show support to Dr Kua? and WHY... would the elder respected role models for chinese communities, TOO showed support to Dr Kua?may all of this "explosive events" stop soon.

what the students, parents and the chinese communities want, is a solid answer. of WHY the service of Dr Kua is no longer needed. and a solid and appropriate policies and plans for the future of the administration of NEC.

the future of NEC is at stake. so is the student's future.

as a graduated student, i am worrying for the future of my later batch of friends, who is still currently determined to stand up against the powerful DJZ till the last second, until a desired reply is given.

and here i am talking about NEC that we used to know. not the NEC it is about to become.

too bad i can't give a more complete overview here. anyhow... here's a video taken by the students of NEC... they have had their say.. what about you?

pls show your support too! =)

what Cherish Means

Cherish is my nickname and let's see what Cherish means...

You are very open. emm, yeah. from my parent's perspective, i am. i am flexible and open minded. You communicate well, and you connect with other people easily. normally i can communicate to whoever i wish to communicate with. You are a naturally creative person. Ideas just flow from your mind. this only applies to me in writing. ^_^ A true chameleon, you are many things at different points in your life. You are very adaptable. halfly true. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. hmm.. halfly true. sometimes i can't quite carry out what i have in mind. Success comes rather easily for you... success in terms of studies, yeah. in terms of romance, no. haha Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. yeaa i tend to be very protective of myself at certain times. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. this is what my friends say. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. yea... i guess. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. haha, yes yes. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. i have my own ideas, but i am not rebellion. wild? hmm.. not really. crazy? hmm.. haha tend to. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. my energy comes and goes. lolz.. but when i am energised, people cannot tahan me. lolz. You're very intense. intense here means passionate right? yeah i can be pretty intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. get into trouble? not me. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. it's been so long since i had fun. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. easily get excited. haha... yes. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. hey! it is true. that's why i often need to remind myself of my goals. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. True. but usually i finish my project or task before deadline. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. ahem. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. you serious?? LOL ---------------- anyways. this name interpretation is just mere for reference. lolz. but it got almost 80% true. kinda cool. =P

tHeme of the Day: sexiness

sexiness

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don't ask me why... the icons embedded is the mainstream popular perception of sexiness.

however, today i felt so sexy.. you know why? in fact i feel sexy every day.

sexiness comes in lots of ways, some girls looks sexy even without baring any more skin than you and I... why? coz they feel sexy. and how they achieve that?

confidence.

as for my case... and i got it through...

dancing workout

the healthier i feel, the more sexy i feel too. =P

p/s: i slimmed down. and im going to keep that routine up. =D

attraction

it is just so strange... and i am talking about attraction.

all these while, i just can't seem to find any guys that i am attracted to.

i had a few in the past but in recent two years, it's all empty.

... alright, i have met some interesting guys but.. too bad, we do not click. haha sad case right? so till now none that i come into knowing have really attracted me or attracted to me.

and i have already got sick of hearing "what that is yours will always be yours" OR else "yours will come in its own time"... blah... BORING. and have heard enough. all i wanna say is... i wanna get myself a BF! lolz.. and i don't care when and how and who and where. regardless of nation.

i am the type of woman who believes much on female independence (emotional, financial and sexuality), men should wash their own clothes, make their own bed, capable of making their own food (i will cook but he will have to know how to as well). that's just what i think men should do.

maybe you will say... probably because i do not believe in these old cliches and ideas that i am so failed in romance? Ahhh... maybe. Many if not most Malaysian guys are still very male egoistic. HA! there you go. i said it, don't beat me up because it's true.

i have lost my passion... no?

Passion...

pls don't think any other passion than the passion towards the life you are living okay?

(i think i am the one who is thinking "serong" lolz kidding laaa)

sometimes... i found myself losing the passion towards my life. especially when doubts starting to engulf me from within.

it is not that i do not have confidence or anything that sort.

but it is that at times, i am not sure of what am capable/ still capable of anymore.

i think holiday is eating me up. (im home alone. on this holiday)

therefore i will set myself a new short term goal...

it is time.. to go back to the times of joining activities! (hectic it will be) BUT that's where my passion lies, the more people there is, the more passion i have.

those days that i misses most... in New Era College, are still the times i had participated in events and camps and fun times with all coursemates!

*reliving memories*

Ahhhhh... good old days.

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p/s: i got rejected. but still got paid for my voice talent. =P feel so thankful la me.. ^____^

a short note on "a new world"

a new world

a new dawn

without seeking comfort in defining skin colours, we are now more complete than ever.

it comes as natural that everything is at its place as it is.

our thinking is the source of all problems. and when we put away those harming thoughts and come under the bright blue sky as one, we are now facing a new beginning.

Tragedy

New Era College (新纪元学院) had been our home.

had been the place where our dream started.

It was the place where i finally found myself.

the place that had given us every opportunity.

New Era College had a GREAT environment to let us grow into individuals, who has independent skills and thinking.

we were well developed.

looking at the news in the past 6 months till today, everything is falling apart.

nothing is left there for us to remember of.

it seems so that everything changed.

New Era is no longer the one and only.

we were proud of New Era College, and still will.

but looking at the present state of this college,

it is transforming into none other than colleges like those out there. commercialised.

it was not meant to be commercialised.

as the dream of those who started this college,

was to create a wholly chinese community college.

where had the dream gone to?

this college is undergoing rapid changes,

those in power is changing and altering what New Era used to be.

we were proud to be different,

fighting to retain what was left.

deciding of moving forward is fine.

however, the changes that imposed is too radical.

too radical that it seem irrational.

what future will there be for the students of New Era?

let us together hold hands and have faith.

Calling

This is a sound track adapted from Narnia the Prince Caspian movie. It is played at the end of the movie, where the four kids departed with the Narnians, back to their own reality.

the words and feeling that comes from this song is what i love about it so much.

"it started out as a feeling...which then grew into a hope"...

"just because everything's changing doesn't mean that it's never been this way before"

as everything changes, there is always something remain unchange, and that... is the memory that we had. there is nothing to be afraid of, because changes will bring you to places you have never been to, and memories will always be your supportive allies.

"pick a star on the dark horizon..."

it may seem hopeless, but believing in even a thin ray of hope "that comes from the star" will help you to win the battle, to win over your obstacle.

"But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget"

never hold the impression that if you are the last person who is holding onto one belief or perception, you eventually have to forget how it is just like the others.

when the world around you fails, it does not mean that you have to.

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Title: The Call -Regina Spektor

It started out as a feeling

Which then grew into a hope

Which then turned into a quiet thought

Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder

'Til it was a battle cry

I'll come back

When you call me

No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing

Doesn't mean it's never been this way before

All you can do is try to know

Who your friends are

As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon

And follow the light

You'll come back When it's over

No need to say good bye

Now we're back to the beginning

It's just a feeling and now one knows yet

But just because they can't feel it too

Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger

'Til they're before your eyes

You'll come back When it's over

No need to say good bye

Slow me Down

this song has been around for a few years, but i still love it, not because who sang it... but because of the meaning conveyed.

the lyrics somehow rang inside me, as if it strucked a responsive chord in my heart.

often in life, we never cease to keep ourselves busy.

as we got ourselves occupied with so many things, we start to lose it.

blurring our own vision, starting to stray away from our purpose.

or... working in one direction that is not really what we would have wanted,

if we take one second to step back, and look at the things we have our head wholly buried in.

often, we are moved forward by the pace of city life.

moving so fast, that everything is no longer clear.

moving as fast that we seldom think twice on some decision.

moving so fast that... we may have missed some pieces along the way..

and moving so fast that, we might do harm to others through negligence.

i came through a few period of life which made me see more clearly about life.

this happened when i slowed down my life and try to look around me, clearly.. for the first time of my life.

first, it was the time when i thought i am going to lose my dearest mother.

second, was the time when i spent the longest period of my life (5 months) just to understand my parents better.

(i used to not totally understand my parents, they are not only parents to me now, they are more than that. they are my friends.)

my parents can be soo cute, adorable, interesting...

(in the past, my perception of them was = strict)

this made me think, that actually there are more sides of a person than we thought we knew.

most of the time, we thought we knew a person, however, that is not really the case.

most of the time, we are quite narrow minded.

because we tend to choose to see things that we want to see.

if you hate a person, you will be likely to see the worst sides of that person.

and vice versa.

if you like someone, you will see more lovely sides of that person, isn't it?

in this song, Emmy Rossum asked for a helping hand, to get her out and away from the blurness of busy and hectic life.

however, you don't really need someone to help you do just that.

what you need is, yourself.

your determination to slow things down once in a while...

by doing that, you will see something you have never thought you would have noticed.

it varies for each individual, so i hope you find your answer too. =)

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i have highlighted a few phrase which i really like.. read on =)

Rushing and racing
and running in circles

Moving so fast, I'm forgetting my purpose
Blur of the traffic is sending me spinning
Getting nowhere

My head and my heart are colliding, chaotic
Pace of the world
I just wish I could stop it
Try to appear like I've got it together
I'm falling apart

Save me
Somebody take my hand, and lead me
Slow me down

Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall

Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down

Sometimes I fear that I might dissapear
In the blur of fast forward I faulter again

Forgetting to breathe, I need to sleep
I'm getting nowhere

All that I've missed I see in the reflection
Passed me while I wasn't paying attention

Tired of rushing, racing and running
I'm falling apart

Tell me
Oh won't you take my hand and lead me
Slow me down
Don't let love pass me by
Just show me how
'Cause I'm ready to fall
Slow me down
Don't let me live a lie
Before my life flys by
I need you to slow me down
Just show me
I need you to slow me down

The noise of the world is getting me caught up
Chasing the clock and I wish I could stop it

Just need to breathe, somebody please
Slow me down

Happy Birthday to Mom!

it's my mom's 55th Birthday!! =P

wishing her the best of all wishes!

love her for being a GREAT and CUTE mom!

A Moment

she's in UK now..

Li Fei, Snoopy, XiaoQing, JJ... and... the one who was crouching by the right, Essel. HA!

sweet Ruirui and Angela... ^^

my big bro JY!! Jimmy Lim (remember this name.. he might be famous in d future! haha)

LOL funny pic.. lol

tears in the eyes...

Dolphin Tao... ^^ she is so adorable! (bian zui was her nickname)

Amber, Xying, Tao, Guigui (nicknamed)

Matt McGee (he's the man! LOL) im keeping this more handsome pic of Matt Tai because he is a lot fuller now (you know what i mean)

friends..

the people appeared in this posts (in photos) are some of the friends that i haven't seen in a while now.. miss them. ^^

Victor Kong (he has a voice suitable to be a radio DJ, so captivating that a few 988's DJ likes him)

those who are not here in this post.. are either because i do not have a GREAT picture of you, or that we never got round to take any pictures. miss you all too! <3

TK and Ian... (used to interview TK.. but have no idea where he is now... in USA, apparently.)

this post is dedicate to all friends i have known. =)

the cool and sexy Yanyan... ^^ (mind you she is HOT)

Guo Rong, a young guy i met on train... and became friends.

the ever so bright and cheerful Siew Fong,... me, Wesley, and cute Essel.

Me and the loving Ruirui!! ^^

and... ha... Stacey.. xD funny and humourous guy.. can be a good companion. =)

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a moment shared, a moment treasured.

ever thought of this or encountered this...? one moment you see someone and then in the next couple of days you see him or her again and again... and when you start to think of the coincidence, you never see him/her anymore. and then one day (perhaps a few months/years later) you meet this person and become friends. you can't stop having a feeling that this new friend looks familiar.. however you forgot that you have ever laid eyes on this person a few months/ years back. you just think he or she looks friendlier than anybody.

and this is what we may have called "fate"..

in different points of our lives, we met people. but we hardly spend more than 24 hours with some of the friends we made. some we shared certain memories. some we shared only a moment.. a short moment of laughter, and joy.

some we met only once a year, shared a few words and a hug, and that's that. we'll never know when we will see each other again. (that's how it was when i met Hillary and Jennifer from USA earlier this June)... That is why i also treasure even the shortest moments i share with any of my friends.

some, i have never met for over than 4 years... (still in touch, though never meet up or anything that sort..) i still miss these friends, but we all have moved on in different pathways and having a totally different life of our own. i am sure we will be able to work out an outing or two some day in future.

a moment shared, forever implants in memory. whether you realised or not, these people made an impact to your life.